Warning: Strong language will be everywhere. Content not safe for work. Content not suitable for minors, or children over the age of 2. May contain trace amounts of TMI. May contain RAGE.




Impressions

I make a bad first impression, generally. Very bad. It's not because I'm socially awkward, an asshole, try-hard, arrogant, or trying to find laughs at the expense of others. As a matter of fact, most of the way I present myself is a result of being comfortable in social situations. I don't feel the need to talk because it's quiet, or be nice because I've just met someone.

However, I don't want to change so that others may not judge me with such vigor and presumptuousness. Rather, I like that it weeds out those I don't want to deal with. (<-- This too, however, is painfully presumptuous.)

I'm not so fond of knowing how many people there are out there who will so quickly dismiss someone who makes intelligent comments as an idiot, or morally unrepentant person just because they disagree with something, or don't meet some standard of politeness that is thought due without doing anything to earn it.

Similarly, I often make a bad impression with jokes that people either don't get, or find offensive. (Rarely the latter.)

Don't talk about shit you don't know. People, least of all.



Names

A name is a peculiar thing. I've never taken to calling someone by a handle given to them by strangers at birth. To me, a name is about what it means to the people who call you it. I prefer to refer to people by names they have adopted themselves, or been given by those who know them best. A given name is no more real than a nickname. If anything, it is less.

I also seem to have a problem understanding the notion that one should simply assume someone wants to know your name, so if I don't introduce myself, you know why. However, you are free to call me what you wish.

Side-note: Contrary to popular belief, I didn't actually choose the name Vex. I simply took to it after a while due to various reasons, which are wholly uninteresting and therefore will not be explained.



Love

LOVE is NOT a special word. Nor has it ever been. The tendency to treat it like one bothers me.

Love means a lot to me, more than anything else. But in the end the word 'love' is just a word. I don't see loving someone as a binary thing, it's a spectrum. Personally, my spectrum gets to a point where the word 'love' can't come close to expressing what I feel. People think that using the word carelessly cheapens it, so they inhibit themselves from saying it until they reach the point in their spectrum where it doesn't mean enough anyway. I think that's what cheapens the word. No matter how much you inhibit yourself from telling people you love them, there will always be a point where telling them doesn't mean enough anyway, and there are actions in that spectrum beyond that point which can show someone how much you love them.

So why, if the word can't be used to express what you truly feel, would you stop yourself from saying it to a person you love in hopes that it could be?



Sex

I'm not against meaningless sex. But I do truly view it as meaningless.

No matter how attractive I find someone, if I don't appreciate the person enough to specifically want to make them orgasm, then sex with them is the same as masturbation. I say that, although personally, I don't think it's any big feat to reach that stage with me, since I adore people.

I'm not going to claim I don't masturbate, but it's not an experience I seek to share with people. (Fully aware of the irony of telling people that, but hell... who doesn't just assume every guy they meet masturbates, anyway?)

On the other extremity of sex, I do feel it's a deeply intimate gesture. But I don't take it as having any kind of pseudo-inherent committal to the person or peoples involved. Rather, I'm not fond of any of this 'unspoken rule' bullshit.

Also; the things that are important for sex are not experience and proportions, but rather research and communication. For those who think getting a girl off is hit and miss; what the fuck is wrong with you?! _{There's something broken in your head.}



Sexuality

You might call me heterosexual. It's not a big stretch, in fact, to call me bisexual or pansexual. I'm not a big fan of those labels however, for two reasons;

a) They have "pride" associated with them. There's nothing wrong with being happy about who you are. I don't think it's a necessary part of being who you are, but I encourage it, as the only real effect it has is making you feel better. However, all things that involve expressing shit to people who don't care and aren't even a part of your life, just to prove to yourself that you're happy, are stupid. They only result in completely unnecessary drama crap happening. No one wants that.

b) Sexual identity is so much more than what genitals you like playing with. It involves everything you find attractive, all the little rules in your head, and all the exceptions to those rules.

c) I like to tell people I'm a gynephiliac (lover of women).

Actually sexuality is rather quite fluid. Having all forms of rules and exceptions.

This is the reason I'm offended by the notion that someone is 'shallow' if they love someone but choose not to sleep with them. I've never heard this from anyone who wouldn't say it's okay if the person wouldn't sleep with them because they were gay, or something of the like. It's pure hypocrisy. People don't choose to find you unattractive, so don't take it out on them.

Notably, most of the chronic bitches I know (though they are few, to be honest), I find repulsive. This does not surprise.



Kinks

Vahh... I can't decide how much I care about this topic, or how much I care who does, or does not want to know.

In short, I am not D/S so much as both (IT'S BETTER THAT WAY. OBV.). BD, but not SM. If anyone wants specifics, they can ask.

Also; I've been known to show tendencies of partialism, and find stomachs particularly sexy. As well as nyotaimori (Sexy makes for good plates).



Relationships

This particular topic makes me want to fly into a shitstorm ragefest. I don't know where to begin, nor end.

I know! I'll make a helpful list of bullet points! (Bullets always help your point. Fact.)

* Sure, believe you need to be in a relationship if you want. Even if that were any of my business, it still wouldn't be my place to determine whether or not that's true. BUT STOP TRYING TO FUCK STRANGERS! Be patient, ffs.

* There are no invisible rules. There is no invisible kangaroo court, and no invisible judge. The only invisible thing that is real is the pink unicorn. Yes. That one standing beside you. If you want rules, you actually have to make them. (Don't understand that quip? Google 'invisible pink unicorn')

* Listen closely to this one: There is absolutely NO SUCH THING as cheating. One word does not describe a single situation that complicated, it CERTAINLY doesn't describe all of them. If you don't know all the facts, kindly shut the hell up.

INTERJECTION! (copy-pasta from comments below for better clarity on the subject)

<sub>The complaint isn't specifically about cheating. Just the gratuitous use of the word.

If people are in a committed relationship, they should have covered that subject in their conversations at least once, and came to a spoken agreement. If a polygamist and a monogamist get together, it's not any more the polygamist's obligation to explain their take on the relationship than it is the monogamist's. I think that mentality is very insulting to polygamous people and therefore object to the use of the word.

If two monogamists get together, both knowing the other is a monogamist, then the understanding should be mutual and not necessarily spoken (Though that would still be highly advisable). When someone describes a situation as 'cheating', it discourages people from thinking about how much and what specific parts of the situation they don't understand before making their personal judgements.

Obviously, I don't endorse betraying someone's trust just for sex, since I don't care for meaningless sex anyway.</sub>



Polygamy

I thought I should put a note in here about this. The thing about polygamy (and monogamy too, believe it or not.) is it doesn't describe anything specific. As a matter of fact, the majority of polygamists I know refuse to use the word and self-identify as polyamorous.

While it is a huge umbrella term, and I don't like to use it, I am technically a polygamist. As I've said that, I'd like to note that my biggest issue with the word is that it describes a person as if they're only capable of polygamy, which is wrong in most, if not all cases. (I believe it's all cases, but I won't speak for everyone.)

Point being; I get very, very offended by the discrimination against polygamy in our society. Worse yet that there are people who endorse discrimination against polygamy as if it's an act of war against monogamy. Also that a lot of people are oblivious to how insulting what they're saying actually is.



Gay Marriage

Ugh... I don't know why I would want to even say anything on this topic. I don't give a shit about marriage, but equal legal rights, plz. Get with the program. We're trying to evolve here.



Sarcasm

No. I'm not sarcastic. So just fuck off and stop telling me I am. If I was sarcastic, I would call you smart for making such an observation. Notice the way I don't? Notice the way I tell you you're an idiot? That's because I'm not sarcastic.



Humility and Modesty

Modesty is shit. Brushing off people's compliments is not 'the polite thing to do', and refusing to acknowledge your own talents just makes you look like an idiot.

Humility is the shit. Modesty is an annoyance. A complete and utter (note that this isn't part of a cow. The internet would do good to learn that.) lack of humility is a fucking PLAGUE in and of itself. The Earth revolves around the suuuuuun... NOT you.



Abortion

The shitstorm in a teacup, itself. I am fully for legal abortion. That said; use protection, you fuckwits.

Also; I have an issue with people who suggest adoption as an alternative, but would never adopt a child because they want to have their own personal spawn. These people are dicks, and will only make the problem worse. (Obviously, I'm also for the adoption of both children and animals, rather than the conception of more. We don't need more. We have enough. Put your cock away and adopt.)



Music

My first love. It is what I breathe. I love to make it too. I'm learning to use a particular loop program at the moment, and intend to learn a few instruments if I have the time/money for lessons.

NOTE: I LIKE MY MUSIC QUIET. Though I generally listen to it slightly louder than the outside noises, and sometimes have it louder because it's awkward singing to quiet music. Some songs are exceptions though. I also dislike parties where you have to yell above the music. My hearing is shit, I have enough problems starting conversations, I don't need that shit.

I don't know what to say, so here's a redundant, incomplete list of genres I like:

Rapcore
Funk metal
Trip Hop
Acid Rap
Symphonic metal
Symphonic black metal
Neo-classical
Neo-folk
Blues
Jazz
Heavy metal
Nu-metal
Industrial
Trad punk
Ska punk
Melodic hardcore
Breakcore
Darkwave
Classic rock
Art rock
J-rock (FFFFF- so not a genre, dammit.)
Country rock
Nerdcore
Rockabilly
Punkabilly
Post-punk
Post-grunge
Grunge
Disco
Funk
Dub
IDM
Dark cabaret
Burlesque
Reggae
Dubstep
House
Electronica

Getting the picture? Right. Moving along...



Religion



Yes. Religion...

Basically, I find the mythos of various cultures (Particularly the Norse) very interesting. Religions, however, sound like horse shit to me.

Let's not get into if I am an Atheist or Agnostic (or Pagan), as those words have... peculiarities. I believe that you should have respect for the things around you, as a default. Not with conviction a cosmic order shall repay the debt (respect, by the way, is never a debt.), but as a lifestyle choice, it suits me just fine.

I am nihiltheistic. (No, that doesn't mean shit.) Beliefs are personal. One is not restricted to a label. :3



Christianity

This gets it's own section because I have a particular idiosyncrasy I wish to discuss. Warning: There may be traces of Godwin's law within this product. (It should be called Godwin's razor. makes more sense that way.)

Now, ignoring entirely all the stereotypes of what is, or is not a christian, because I ENTIRELY don't want to go there, why would anyone self-identify as one?

Not really worried about their bad rep as bigots, which is off-putting as is, but believing in Christ doesn't mean you have to be a christian. What's worse is; these people will be proud of the good achievements of other people, just because they're from the same religion (How the hell else would Extreme Makeover: Home Edition get ratings?), and then immediately turn around and deny any association with the crusades, witch-hunts, syncretism, etc. Take your pick. A lot of them will go so far as to say, "They're not real christians." It really, really, really, doesn't work that way. Really.

If a neo-nazi came up to you, and told you all about how great it is to be part of the master race, and the social benefits their ideal poltical clime has, then said, "The holocaust has nothing to do with being a nazi, because the people who gassed millions of people weren't real nazis.", would you, or wouldn't you, respond like this?:

If a national socialist came up to you, and chatted about why they like nationalism and socialism and the combination of both, you would likely listen to what they said, as opposed to dismissing them for being a complete cockbucket.

I, personally, like national socialists who aren't cockbuckets. As a matter of fact, I have a particular fondness for all people who aren't cockbuckets.



Science

I love science, I do. But wake the fuck up people. Just because it's published in a scientific journal, or wikipedia, doesn't mean it's true. Don't take science for granted. It still relies on imperfect communication methods, and is literally ABOUT discovering the unknown. It's not flawless. There's no way it could possibly BE flawless.

And stop treating me like a fucking fundie just because I choose to follow its progress with an open-mind, rather than blindly. You're the one acting like a christian stereotype. -___-



Alcohol

Wtf is this shit? I mean, really... I want to have some kind of valid opinion on it, if only to feel certain when I tell people they're a fucking tool for going out and getting smashed.

Thing is; it does NOTHING for me.

And it's not because I haven't drank enough. I've managed to produce the negative effects, though it takes a while (for someone who practically doesn't drink, I'm really not a lightweight). Sickness, loss of equilibrium, slurring, dehydration. I've never experienced the slightest increase in happiness or decrease in inhibitions, which gives lead to my theory that people are pathetic playthings of psycho-somaticism, and are really happy because they have something they can blame their lowered inhibitions on so that they can act the way they want to for once.

I know alcohol doesn't give everyone the same buzz, but what the hell is WRONG with you people? </s>

This whole section makes me sound like a git. But really, binging is pathetic. Grow up. No. Actually; it really doesn't.



Drugs

Drugs scare the fuck out of me. Why? People think I'm on drugs all the time.

Whatever the fuck they do, I don't want to agitate my train-wreck emotions OR my seriously abnormal physiological states. So, yeah... let's not go there.

Though, like alcohol, I feel they're blown out of proportion.



Hugs

I ADORE hugs. Truly. Give me as many hugs as you possibly can. Even if you're some random person on the street. I also like meeting people, so it's all good.

I place hugs into three categories - weak hugs, okay hugs and great hugs.

Weak hugs; are pretty much all hugs two guys give each other. I get these from strangers all the time, because they're too shy to hug properly, which leaves me wondering why they want a hug in the first place. I honestly don't appreciate these from anyone, unless it's someone I really like, or I know they're not particularly comfortable with hugging people.
Okay hugs; are average. I also get these from strangers all the time, which is fine.
Great hugs; are the kind that actually make you feel certain that someone's hugging you out of appreciation and not gratuity. A lot of people don't even give these to their friends, so when I get them from strangers I really get a buzz. So far there's been 6 people that I've gotten great hugs from, 2 of which haven't even seen my trenchcoat yet and are therefore far beyond awesome. (Numbers no longer valid as I know way more awesome people now. )

:iconmclarsplz:The great thing about nerdcore is; you can hug each other... and it's all good. It's like, "Yo, we can hug, but that doesn't mean we're gonna have sex."
:iconmcfrontalotplz:I didn't know we were ruling things out at this stage.

(Those quotes are from a live concert they played.)

_{I will have faith that one day, the appropriate plz accounts for that conversation will actually exist.}



Extroversion

People. I needs them.

The matter with extro/introversion is there are many ways to look at them, all of which are very credible, as personality is complex and it's easier to confirm having a trait than to deny it. Also notable, is that the terms are not a binary function, as they sound. Both terms describe a collection of traits that all people have to some degree, so their use is rather confuzzling.

The theory I, and seemingly most, find most perceptive is the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. (I'm ENTP, for the record)

What I find particularly relevant about MBTI is that it recognises both that people have tendencies toward extroversion and introversion, and also what particular aspects of one's personality that extroversion and introversion applies to.

As I have always shown very strong introverted and extroverted traits, I think it's fitting to describe me the way MBTI describes me. Despite being a strongly perceiving person and therefore thinking the description is shallow. Ironically, fitting the description of me perfectly.

This is how it works:
Each 'type' has four letters, in a particular order.
1: E or I - standing for Extroversion or Introversion
2: S or N - standing for Sensing or iNtuiting
3: T or F - standing for Thinking or Feeling
4: P or J - standing for Perceiving or Judging

(NB: I'll talk about them in a different order because it's easier to explain as the middle two letters describe functions, and the outer letters describe the state of those functions.)

Outer Letters:
E = My primary mode of thinking involves extroversion. Meaning my secondary is introverted, tertiary is extroverted and inferior is introverted.
P = My primary mode of thinking involves perceiving. The perceiving function is the second letter (S or N), the judging function is the third letter (T or F). (This is true because I'm an extrovert, so tend to show my primary function. For introverts, this letter indicates their secondary function, and they only show their primary function when they deem it important.)

Perceiving
N = I gather information through intuition. Rather than taking solid facts seriously, I distrust them as things that aren't a 'grey area' seem to me like information is withheld or missing. I trust my interpretation of 'grey area' facts, though it risks having more subjectivity involved in my decisions. Intuition deals with relating data to patterns or theory, and always being open to the possibility of new data. A lot of the process is subconscious, so I often have a hard time explaining how I 'know' how someone feels, or what's going to happen, as my conscious mind doesn't have access to some of the information that's part of the process of understanding the situation.

Intuition is particularly good for understanding people, as a personality, in it's truest sense, consists entirely of 'grey area' facts. (I believe this is the colloquial phenomenon called the 'x factor' )

Judging
T = I make decisions based primarily on my logic. Notably; I often give the impression of being a feeling type, but this is more of an illusion. The reason for it is I place more value on my emotions than most things, so my logic often involves, "How will this affect me, emotionally?" as a main selling point.

I have grown to show more of a tendency toward relying on my intuition rather than my thinking due to personal experience. I often come up with notions about what someone's thinking that I can't possibly see how I should be so certain, but the amount of times I'm correct makes it difficult for me to distrust my hunches. It's not really that my intuition has become more prevalent over my thinking, but rather anecdotal evidence has made my thinking grow to endorse courses of action that presume it's correct.

In summary, the following functions are in order of how likely I am to use them to interpret a situation:

Extroverted intuition (Ne)
Introverted thinking (Ti)
Extroverted feeling (Fe)
Introverted sensing (Si)

As hoped, that was a little (read:much) more insightful than a copy-pasta description of ENTP personalities.



Sexism, racism, bullshit

Again, if you've read this far, I should hope I don't have to say anything on this topic.

Though I'd like to point out; it really bothers me that people don't realise that making minor stereotypes and jokes has an effect on the societal hive-mind of encouraging close-mindedness. The more shit like that there is out there, even when it's obviously a joke, the easier it is for people to believe the stereotypes are true, or to feel justified in discriminating, or to feel they have to submit to societal peer pressure.

Whether or not you actually believe the stereotype is irrelevant. It's needless exacerbation. So don't get whiny if I tell you to shut the fuck up.



Paranoia

I'm generally cautious by nature, but I'm not paranoid about much. However, I've come to understand that very few people will actually tell me when they have a problem with me. That makes me paranoid. I wonder about the people who just quietly suffer me when I'm around. Most likely, they just don't find me very approachable or interesting (or either), but I can't help thinking some of them might genuinely dislike me and not want to bring it up. I also get uncomfortable in other people's houses unless I'm sure that I'm welcomed by all the people who live there. Even if the person who invited me is their favourite drinking buddy, or something like that.

So if you have a problem with me, please tell me. I won't eat you. _{I only eat the people I love.}



Vegetarians

Vegetarians tend to be the type of people I adore. I don't have much of a penchant for meat myself, but am by no means a vegetarian. (I'm on a plant-based diet. I usually say I'm freegan, though that's not technically true.) From experience, I've never known any of them to have a problem with that. The stereotype of vegetarians being pushy about their beliefs is pretty bullshit, and is probably just the result of some ignorant hicks to whom someone perhaps suggested eating a salad instead of the heart-choking red meat they have for every meal.

I think people see me as more of a bleeding-heart than I really am, just because I'm polite, and keep ranting about how much sexism pisses me off.



Piercings

I had a scaffold. I'm letting it heal because it was really uncomfortable. I still want to get more though. I don't look right having nothing on my ears. I want to get studs between my fingers on my left hand too. I'm not sure if that will cause problems or not. Planning to get some work done soon. I really need it. I haven't felt like I look like me for a while now. Even my hair doesn't fit.



Tattoos

I secretly dislike them. I adore body mod, but people should have to take some kind of style-test before putting random shit on their skin. I really don't like tattoos that don't compliment the body part they're on. I love things that enhance aesthetic attributes of the body, but a random picture that's supposed to stand alone in it's beauty shouldn't be put on your skin. Make a poster of it and put it in your room or something.



Interests

My interests include design, film, sociology, music theory, psychological profiling, sewing, computers, science and LOVE. I adore knowledge. "Intelligence is sexy." ~...and Oceans.



Likes

Feel free to recommend anything similar to something listed here.

Movies
Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels
Sahara
Mall Rats
Chasing Amy
Boondock Saints
Clerks I & II
Fight Club
Dogma
Jay & Silent Bob Strike Back
Resident Evil series
The Italian Job
Gone in 60 Seconds
AEon Flux
Pitch Black, and to a lesser extent, Chronicles of Riddick

Manga/Manwha
Liar Game
Soul Eater
Air Gear
Beck
Deadman Wonderland
Gantz
Hellsing
Gasmask Girl
Tower Of God
Fairy Tail
Spiral
Spiral: Alive
Naruto
Pandora Hearts
FMA
Bamboo Blade
Black God
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
Monster Hunter Orage
Persona 3
Z-Loan
Special A
Yu Yu Hakusho
Zombie Powder
Valkyrie Profile

Basically anything Seinen.

Food
Cheesecake
Fruit!
Tomato
Avocado
Jello~
Phoenix organic fruit drinks

Shows
Metalocalypse... brutal.
Gary the Rat
Drawn Together
House
Epic Meal Time
Archer
SMBC Theatre
Black Books
Red vs Blue
Bromwell High
Onion Network News
7 Days
Pushing Daisies (still makes me cry)
Robot Chicken
Zoids: Chaotic Century

Games
Unreal - entire series
Disgaea 1&2
Bloody Roar 2&3
Timesplitters: Future Perfect
Urban Chaos
Bahamut Lagoon
Hitman
Morrowind
Metal Gear Solid series
Anything with a decent cooperative mode


Colours
Teal! And white... and everything bright~ -whistles Favourite Things tune-



Graaaave Dislikes

Kumara
Pumpkin
Coffee
Caffeine
Nicotine
Weed
Dubbed anime
Politicians
Motor vehicles


I think that's all the subjects I'll cover. There will probably still be minor updates now and then. I still want questions/topic suggestions though, so if you've got any, please ask.